I have to let it go

what happened to me?

A strong feeling urges me to let it go...

After and each every time i have made a cruel decision,a first step is inevitable...

but i always couldn take the first step...

cause i am intimidated by the outcome that i have to bear..

i hate myself being so hesitant, and in everything, i am failed.

To make a decision with action is not easy.

From tonight onwards, i'm determined (HOPEFULLY) to do something.

I know this will not be an easy path to grow..as i cant bear to lose everything..

though i'm in silent crying, i'm still will keep my finger crossed at what this challenge might turn me into..

to be a genuinely more independant person.

sometimes i'm confused. WHO I AM ACTUALLY?

i can be happy in front of people..but actually i was crying

as if i dunno what turns me into this..

during this exam period..i could feel that i'm immersed into a deep pool of misery

i'm challenged to do something that i'm not willing to

BUT this is the right thing to start, and get over this.

now i realise

how attention seeker i am.

and

how foolish i am.

HELP ME TO CHANGE MYSELF, PLEASE.

adiós