This is the last day of 2010
my last day of being 21
when I flashed back..
I found out nothing much that I have done..
except passing my first year, LOL
and I went to a lot of places, like Ooty, Kerala, Mumbai, Pune
My plans to change myself are still in vain
I mean, I am still lazy, not determined, low self esteem, no confidence and so on
I still find myself hard to communicate with people sometimes
Feeling sensitive, sometimes I feel that people are against me
as if I never bring out the best in me
and I cant keep my mouth shut all the time
My friendships aren't build on a solid foundation
that is why I have no true friend in life?
Maybe I am too selfish and self-centered..that's the way I protect myself
...
What is the purpose of life, actually?
I feel like I am wasting a lot of time
and too soft to reject people
I always say I wanna change
but since when I did change?
sigh..easier said that done
and I wanna be smarter!
I wanna be closer to you God..
I wanna have good relationships and friendships
I feel safe and happy if people think that I am reliable
I wanna stay away from temptations
I wanna be skillful and decisive
and ...blah blah blah..
all kinds of wishes
just wish that in 22, my wishes will come true together with my efforts =)
....
speaking of 31 dec 2010
well, there are 2 great persons who exist in my life were born on this day
ok.. this is the latest picture I could find
HAPPY 21TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR SYUEH NY!!
hope our friendship lasts forever!
and
..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE BRO!
1 comment:
i feel like i m having the samen prob with u....izzit bcoz v r aquarius?? aiz....
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