最后的二十岁

再过一个小时

我将正式告别少年生涯

其实想说

活了整整二十年

确确实实不简单

曾经拥有的回忆

开始害怕了

是否会像个流星

光芒侚丽

跨过天迹，然后消失不见?

世界上 最不能留住的是时间

过了就是过了

有什么遗憾，回头一望，可能都拟补不了

最后的二十岁

要怎么度过才好？

回忆过去？学会感恩？

突然觉得，很舍不得你，我的宝贝二十

那个时候

我开始打了将近九个月的工

然后经历了人生最重要的十字路口

最终选择了到印度升学

这回忆 我将会永远记住

活了二十年

感谢身边的每一个人

每一个曾经在我的记忆中留下脚印的人

不论我对你不爽也好，爽也好

感谢你们曾经出现在我的生命里

谢谢你们，朋友，有你们，我才知道什么是感动

想念你们，我的亲人

能与你们结为亲戚是我的福分

还有我的家人

很想念你们，谢谢爸爸一直都很疼我，妈妈一直都很爱我，两个好弟弟，我为你们感到骄傲

之前

我很怕面对二十一岁

因为这也意味着我必须成长，必须开始担当更大的责任

这观念本来就是一个错误

今天

我要开开心心的迎接这一天

正式挥别二十

我要金钥匙！

拜拜，我的昔日旧爱二十岁

祝各位虎年行大运

情人节快乐

还有

生日快乐

Perdón

Sorryy..

I know a simple sorry couldn replace anything

but this is the only thing I can do for you

to say Sorry.

These are my deadly mistakes,

and I will try my best to improve myself.

乱写一通

二月咯！

时间过得好快好快～

呼，考试终于都完了..!!

现在已经过了二月的第六天

想说，考试其实很烦人……我们这个b batch 的，最后一次的考试竟然给我拖到3号！我真的很想快点了结它啊～真的顶不顺了

讲到这次的考试，不知道为什么，我就是没办法坚持到最后，这很不像以前的我……当时的我真的很显，一直都好想逃避考试这鬼东西

虽然是占年尾考试的八仙率并不大，我还是想好好的考好啊，这样才不会对不起自己的良心，还是……心有余而力不足啦== 真的希望下次不要再重犯了，下次不是能开玩笑就算的，听说年尾考试会很难，因为被政府考试给取代了

总之，结论是，如果不是临时抱佛脚的话，其实每一个人都可以考得很好的。

嗯，是应该检讨检讨一下了

前两天分了biochem, 我是真的觉得我做不好，因为当时的我已经在放弃的边缘了~为了某些原因=P 感谢神我还会了一些些～我比较好的部分应该是属于实习考试吧，才会把分数拉高……其实，我觉得有些同学可以做得更好的，只是出了些状况吧……他们下次可以做得更好的，才会给我一些些压力嘛^^我也会开始喜欢biochem了，嘻嘻

今天我终于知道Physio的成绩了，考得很差强人意，就在及格边缘而已……

不过我无所谓，反正这是预料中的事，虽然我在这科上蛮别有用心的说

唉，过去就让它过去啦，我虽然很爱呱呱叫，这科嘛，我选择保持沉默

很显然的，我还没准备好～而且平时没听课的缘故，再加上参考书弄到我很乱

因为viva老师的一番话，还是振作吧！既然她那么地信任我～加油！Phy,我要宰了你！

anatomy 我就不知道了。我只知道考practical那天，我因为睡不醒而考砸了……

今天，我的Table teacher 突然看住我跟我说他已经改了我的考卷，神啊……

我当时吓一跳，因为我不认为我的anatomy考得好咯，写得很乱七八糟，是不是讲师赞错人了呢？？他可以说到要其他人以我为榜样，学习我的回答方式 （没有啊，我乱写的哦）

不过，他确实是很好的导师，跟着他，我会很喜欢anatomy的 =)

还有个女的，也蛮不错，看样子很温柔，其实也是一个很严厉的导师……还因为我贪睡而被罚站哈哈～

同同的table teacher很目中无人的，他怎么可以这样瞧不起华人的呢？每一个种族都有自己的文化，要就接受，不要就应尊重，没有你的基本尊重还不打紧，凭什么乱批评勒？

还有一科，oral biology.

我的carving 和 viva 完了,其他的theory更不用讲了,我是放弃的了

成绩会如何，就欣然接受吧，就这样

这次的考试让很多讲师失望，他们说我们是最烂的batch== 其实这只是我们的第一次考试，难免会经验不足的嘛哈哈

就会有坏处咯，会有更多的考试冲着来！！唉～

每一年我都好期待二月的日子

祝各位二月宝宝新年快乐，生日快乐！

我爱我的生日，今年还落在除夕！

超想念马来西亚！我的槟城，我的实兆远，我的家，我的爷爷婆婆，我的家人，我的亲戚朋友，我最爱的食物！

新年，最想与家人一起度过了！

可是我却没机会回家……

每次想到这里我就好想哭，却只有欲哭无泪的感觉……

毕竟这是我第一次离家那么远

好想家哦～

几时才能回家？？

Viaje

Journey

It's a long long journey

Till I know where I'm supposed to be

It's a long long journey

And I don't know if I can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes

I am lost and know that I must hide

It's a long long journey

Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent

Drifting on through empty shores

Wondering what's my purpose

Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry

I know you'll be standing by my side

It's a long long journey

And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands

I don't even know why

I do the things I do

When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul

Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

Cause It's a long long journey

Till I feel that I am worth the price

You paid for me on calvary

Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes

It feel like everything is out to make me lose control

It's a long long journey

Till I find my way home to you

Reconocimiento

Recognition

..............................................................

New Delhi: The Union Ministry of Human Resources and Development has informed the Supreme Court that it has decided to derecognise "deemed" status of 44 universities across the country.

In an affidavit filed by HRD ministry before SC, the ministry said that 44 deemed universities were found unfit while 44 others were asked to rectify the shortcomings while 38 other found doing good job.

On Monday, The HRD ministry filed two affidavit in the supreme court, one is regarding approval for Foreign Universities entry to India, other is to withdraw deemed status from defaulter universities.

The MHRD has shortlisted the 44 unfit deemed universities following the findings of highpower committee .headed by P.N. Tandon. The Tandon Committee visited 126 deemed university across the country and submitted his report before the ministry.

The Committee has also suggested setting up special task force to tackle such kind of issues.

The list of 44 deemed universities found unfit have been submitted before the apex court. We have found names of some universities, who will be derecognise are: Devraj Urs University, Karnataka, Manav Rachna Institute in Gurgaon, DY Patil University Maharashtra, Savita Institute, Vinayaka Mission Tamil Nadu, Institute of History of Art Conservation and Musicology, New Delhi, Bangalore's Christ College and Jaypee Institute of Information Technology in Noida.

........................................................................

*from http://www.samaylive.com/news/44-deemed-universities-in-india-to-be-derecognised/672434.html

Omg what is this?

Can anybody explain to me what is happening here?

It's been derecognised by india government..now i'm totally have no idea about this

Tons of questions flying inside my head..everyone seems to give different opinions about this..basically with their owe judgements and without any strong evidences..

i'm confused. Who i shall believe? what about my future? what shall be my next plan?

I dunno what are those reasons behind it, but the main reason might be abysmal infrastructure and teaching facilities. Yeah i totally agree. They have improper buildings and facilities, which is really terrible in our sight.

And not mentioning whether it is under watchlist and can be reverted back into its affiliated college of its original university, seriously i think the chance is very slim.

now i'm quite worried of how i will be exactly graded by them? Hopefully the government of India will finalise a legislative proposal for regulating the exam system and syllabus and as well as entry and operations of foreign education providers in india.

well i don really wish to complain much about this, but if you see how the admin operates here, sigh..those indians..i'm very very speechless.><

Maybe after VMU is taken over by MGI (Mahatma Gandhi Research),

things will get solved? Let's see.

Mahatma Gandhi Medical College & Research Institute (M.G.M.C.& R.I), the flagship institution of Sri Balaji Educational and Charitable Public Trust (S.B.E.C.T), Chaired by Sri M.K Rajagopalan, is a modern medical college and hospital located in Puducherry (formerly known as Pondicherry), South India. The campus is situated in a beautiful sylvan setting at Pillayarkuppam, 14 Kilometers from Puducherry City, near the town of Cuddalore. This tertiary care teaching hospital, better known as Architectural Wonder of Puducherry, is an imposing landmark on National Highway NH45A. It is a leading private sector medical centre in this area providing high standard Undergraduate and Post Graduate Medical Education. The institution is recognised by the Medical Council of India, Ministry of Health and Family Welfare of Government of India,and the Government of Puducherry. M.G.M.C.R.I was affiliated to Pondicherry University. M.G.M.C.R.I has been recognised as a deemed university byuniversity grants commission, New Delhi,on fourth August 2008. (Adapted from Wikipedia)

I have to let it go

what happened to me?

A strong feeling urges me to let it go...

After and each every time i have made a cruel decision,a first step is inevitable...

but i always couldn take the first step...

cause i am intimidated by the outcome that i have to bear..

i hate myself being so hesitant, and in everything, i am failed.

To make a decision with action is not easy.

From tonight onwards, i'm determined (HOPEFULLY) to do something.

I know this will not be an easy path to grow..as i cant bear to lose everything..

though i'm in silent crying, i'm still will keep my finger crossed at what this challenge might turn me into..

to be a genuinely more independant person.

sometimes i'm confused. WHO I AM ACTUALLY?

i can be happy in front of people..but actually i was crying

as if i dunno what turns me into this..

during this exam period..i could feel that i'm immersed into a deep pool of misery

i'm challenged to do something that i'm not willing to

BUT this is the right thing to start, and get over this.

now i realise

how attention seeker i am.

and

how foolish i am.

HELP ME TO CHANGE MYSELF, PLEASE.

adiós

nuovo anno 2010

2010

意味着我将步入21

虽然人家说forever 21是何等美好的事

我却只想高唱 “不想长大”

好想好想永远都是十九岁

我也不知道为什么有这种想法

可能我在逃避现实

人长大了

难免需要背负更大更多的责任

过了情人节前夕

我将会是完完全全的成人了

加油吧

要不停地往前进

............................................................................

再过两个星期我要考试了

第一次的考试

还没真正的去准备

好压力好紧张

不过我还是会努力尽力到最后

加油哦

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