When you think about birthdays, What's the first thing that comes across your mind?
birthday cake?ooh,i'd just love choc and mint flavor! And..and i always wanna try ice-cream cake!
OR candles?
OR any happy birthday songs?
But YESTERDAY,i made it simpler and easier=) no birthday cake,no candles,no birthday songs,and no parties. I just don wanna follow the ancient and classical Roman culture =P (o.0,finding an excuse)the way of celebrating birthday is just being rejected. Maybe i lost my passion of celebrating my Big day ^^ i'm not that excited as anticipated..in fact, i didnt have birthday celebrations with my family for the past two years..
AM I GETTING USED TO THE DULL,NORMAL LIFE UNTIL I FORGOT HOW IMPORTANT MY BIRTHDAY IS?
MY BIRTHDAY HAS BECOME A- NOTHING?
WHY AM I STARTING TO BELIEVE THAT BIRTHDAY IS JUST A MEANINGLESS RITE OF TRANSITION?
AM I LOST?I CANT FEEL THE WARMTH AND HAPPINESS OF BIRTHDAY.
WHY I FEEL NOTHING.NOTHING.NOTHING.
WHY AM I CRAPPING HERE?
ARHHHH..........
well, i think i've gone crazy,desperate to celebrate with my family..i miss the time we celebrated together..miss the time i blew the candles, sang happy birthday songs, took sweet family photos together, enjoyed eating our cakes...these are the precious memories we had together..i just..dont wanna miss any of them..
i rmb years ago,someone told me..[why u wanna celebrate birthday? ]It was a day when yr mom was in a great agony. when mom was pregnant, she had a big tumour in somewhere near to uterus. She bear the pain and underwent operation..yes, finally thank God she gave birth to me..but i'm a crying baby..haha,my hobby at that time was just crying,crying for every 30 minutes..
If I were my mum at that time,i'd just KILL me.
but i'm still alive right now.
=P
yrs ago i just didn get it.I thought that she didn love me anymore.IF SHE LOVES ME,THEN WHY SHE STOPS ME FROM CELEBRATING BDAY?
realise that my birth = her utter pain. havent try it before but when i taste it in the future,i'll be able to know how painful it is.
Appreciate the one that loves you-mom, she is the one who risks anything to save you.
ESPECIALLY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY.
forget this emo and contradicting post.I'm just crapping.
PS:actually she wanted to organise a Birthday BBQ for me,but i think it's soo troublesome..haha~
anyway wish me a happy 20th birthday =P
i rmb years ago,someone told me..[why u wanna celebrate birthday? ]It was a day when yr mom was in a great agony. when mom was pregnant, she had a big tumour in somewhere near to uterus. She bear the pain and underwent operation..yes, finally thank God she gave birth to me..but i'm a crying baby..haha,my hobby at that time was just crying,crying for every 30 minutes..
If I were my mum at that time,i'd just KILL me.
but i'm still alive right now.
=P
yrs ago i just didn get it.I thought that she didn love me anymore.IF SHE LOVES ME,THEN WHY SHE STOPS ME FROM CELEBRATING BDAY?
realise that my birth = her utter pain. havent try it before but when i taste it in the future,i'll be able to know how painful it is.
Appreciate the one that loves you-mom, she is the one who risks anything to save you.
ESPECIALLY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY.
forget this emo and contradicting post.I'm just crapping.
PS:actually she wanted to organise a Birthday BBQ for me,but i think it's soo troublesome..haha~
anyway wish me a happy 20th birthday =P
3 comments:
haha,ur birthday r much better compared 2 me,i never celebrate with friends bfor,just birthday song frm classmate,smses,n a ordinary pizza.since form 5,my birthday present received less than three,very pity....u considere lucky adi
haha~when you study in Uni i'm sure that you'll get lots of frens to celebrate with you..haha~~
i cant celebrate with you thenT.T cuz maybe we dont study together edi v.V
lu xuen~ become mature d oh. the 1st year of 20+ years old. haha.. but after half a year, i also old d. anywhere, all the best to u ^^
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